Domestic Abuser & Diversionary Tactics

 Yanking yourself from a cycle of domestic abuse is mindfuckery at its best, it really is. You second guess yourself, you fall back into patterns that have the illusion of good and safe.  You can put yourself there or end up there not knowing how the fuck you got there…again…and…again… There is not part of … Continue reading Domestic Abuser & Diversionary Tactics

The Joke of Victim Advocacy Compliments of Lancaster, PA & Disney Princesses

The criminal justice system in Lancaster, PA and their so called ‘victim advocacy’ is a full on cruel joke, bend over, it’s going to hurt *bad* kind of joke.  If your ‘husband’ tries to kill you, the Lancaster DA has his back! Would you like Disney shaped fries with that? Yesterday the Lancaster Court of … Continue reading The Joke of Victim Advocacy Compliments of Lancaster, PA & Disney Princesses

Does He Remember Why The Goat Was In Danger?

How do you rebuild a life that was literally and figuratively violently altered by someone else’s choices?  How do you navigate crippling grief that swooped in and hijacked your life when you are the goat? I don’t have those answers, I’ve been there, done that.  I can attest that you don’t really ever rebuild it … Continue reading Does He Remember Why The Goat Was In Danger?

Over It

I know grief isn’t linear, I know ambiguous loss cuts a deep and stays deep and has been my partner in crime for near 9 months now.  I won’t get closure on what I lost, not now, not ever.  Getting to the point of accepting that is progress. This is one of those days were … Continue reading Over It