Last time I wrote anything from start to completion was months back, when the weather was still colder and snow could still be seen. Like it goes, he came back in like bull in a china factory. Nothing left undamaged and shards of that destruction to be felt for the foreseeable future. He was pushing … Continue reading And Then Life Happened
HaHa! Well that didn’t take long before Kleo wound up back in the locked ward now did it. So lets look at the timeline here: Doing ok. Pretty good husband for the most part until…. stays up with nut job Mom in July. Comes homes, orders “bath salts” to mommys house Says he’s leaving his … Continue reading Who Said Locked Wards aren’t Fun!
It’s not. It was slow going and lots of work, coupled with even more work 😉 I tell bits and pieces of the story as a modality to give it less power over the shame and secrecy that is all too often the bastard child of domestic violence. Today during therapy, my therapist told me … Continue reading When I write, it can often feel that my life is and has been all consumed by SK
Finally, a holiday that wasn’t ruined by the weight of SK and his own brand of crazy. I can’t say if it was more in the change of venue or systemic changes in our family unit. I don’t give a fuck why, I am, however, very content today. SK is way out there in la … Continue reading Sudden Death OT
SK sent out this mass message on FB messenger. He seemed to have handpicked those to share his vile orchestration of “truth”. He spoke about my children as though he has had any meaningful relationship, influence or presence in their life. It wasn’t a public message, those were all just highlighting his instability and crazy … Continue reading The Voice of My Daughter | Don’t Fuck With My Family, We Are Stronger Than You Know
SK showed up again in my life early March. In fact, I came home to him in my living room. Unannounced, uninvited, just showed up after not living here for a year and a half. I mean literally too, I came home and he had let himself in as though all was right with the … Continue reading Irony
I’ll admit that today I am struggling, I would ponder that notion that because I am a human capable of a range of emotions… disgust, disdain, anger, compassion… Hate would be a very comfortable place to cozy on up to. I’m supposed to work on sitting with a feeling and not burying under a stoic … Continue reading Friday.
It’s been a while since I’ve been compelled to put feeling to the false veil of anonymity that the web provides. I’ve sent a sarcastically scathing email to the family based team that listening to them has resulted in another broken bone. This time my arm. In true form though, I fell skiing, got up … Continue reading Pendulums & 200,000 Bail – Only SK
(I didn’t answer btw) Today and the past few weeks have shown some normalization of life and how different a year later can move you through different stages. I still struggle with the anxiety thanks to the ex-husband, depression has held on through some trying changes. There is still work to undo the tangled up … Continue reading Jesus People at My Door
Yup, I said it, the week went well, the week ended well and I’m actually really starting to feel semi human again – without it being a feat of epic proportions. I survived surgery on Monday and while that’s still an ‘in limbo’ status, the actual surgery aspect of it was a giant check in … Continue reading The Week Closes Out… On a Good Note Even